2 Years.
In some ways the longest two years of my life. In some ways the shortest.
How can it be that she's been gone so long? and yet so short a time?
This concept of time is confusing. My life has been on pause since that day but it also hasn't paused. The kids have grown up. I've had a baby. Time has moved on. We have always told each one of our kids as they were babies, "Don't grow up. Stay just the age you are. I wish we could push pause." But we don't really mean it. We have one child that is eternally 2 years and 3 months. We don't really want another that doesn't grow up.
2 Years.
You know what? We are doing good. The baby has helped us heal. I love seeing the kids with delighted faces as they get her to laugh or they feed her or play. They feel Joy through her as they enjoy having a baby sister.
Time really does heal. But time is also a stealer of memories. As time passes, we forget. We don't want to but we do.
It's a balance of moving forward and not forgetting.
I still think about Joy every day. I hope I always do.
I don't want to forget.
I just want to keep on loving and living.
You are one amazing person and I want you to know that I really look up to you.
ReplyDeleteI LOVE that picture of your kids. Amazing what the Lord can do with our lives even amidst such difficulty. I love hearing that you've had healing.
ReplyDeleteand don't worry...you won't forget.
Love you! like the new blog. SQUEEZE...that was a big hug from me. and prayers are still coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI love the new blog. Nice work.
ReplyDeleteI love you, my sweet Tami!
ReplyDeleteI hope you never forget, either, and hope none of us forget sweet Joy. I know you won't. She is still blessed to have you as her mother...your kids are all pretty lucky bugs to have you.
ReplyDeleteThought about you a lot this week. Hope you are doing ok.
ReplyDeleteI love your talent at putting feelings into words. Your blog helps me know how you are doing, but also helps me think on a higher level and remember what is important. Thanks Tami.
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